Attraction is complex

So I’m a 19 year old queer kid I guess we could say I’m a stud because i dress like a boy but I’m much more sensitive and I’m scared of a lot things. I don’t know how to talk to girls I’ve never been in a situation that required me to be an instigator
So i like a girl she’s out of my league
And we’re totally different she likes partying, drinking and smoking weed to be exact . And I on the other hand do not do all of those things. I’m not perfect i have my vices too. The thing is she’s outgoing and I’m a self opinionated introvert. she’s the first girl I’ve liked in two years . She’s the first girl to make my palms moist by walking in a room. A mere sight of her makes me heat up like a room full of sinners . My point is i really like her and I’m not a confident person so how do i go about telling her that i really like her because I once told her that i have a crush on her and she wasn’t sober so she never said anything cause she could not fathom what had happened  that day, so today she kissed me . She kissed me at first i was flabbergasted but then she convinced me to kiss her on the cheek which i agreed to being the gentle man that i am but when i was trying to kiss her on the cheek she moved the cheek and i kissed her on the lips Goddamn excuse that but Goddam she’s the kiss that left me tranded . The kiss that turned  out my lights with it’s gentle .The one that holds  me up  while it destroys all control of my muscles. The one that makes all the other kisses I’ve had disappear into thin air like they never existed and the ones to come never happen  cause they are not the kiss. She tasted moist, sweet and fruity .Her taste still lingers on my mouth .Also she’s not gay so I’m a bit confused is the feeling mutual or she just kissed me ?
The complexities of attraction have left me in a fuzz